things i have been thinking about recently.1. quite a lot about why we pick at ourselves with this little game that everyone plays for no good reason at all, which is the game of preferring blindness to deafness given the choice. it is for obvious reasons a ridiculous game to play & all day i thought, what does it say that we think the loss of a sense will come down to a buffet-esque choice?
2. i mention this only because i have finalized my own loss-of-sense buffet & it will go in this order:
taste
smell
sight
hearing
touch
2.5. me: "i think i would die without a sense of touch."
mischka: "you wouldn't do well as a leper, then."
3. also out of the blue, about this boy i dated off & on for a lot of years & how he came to visit me at kenyon one time & we sat down by the gap trail looking over highway 229 while he told me about this psychology experiment he got paid to do. it was one of those to test the nerves in your fingertips & he apparently had such astonishingly sensitive ones that the researchers kept asking him back all the time. while he was explaining the experiment he poked my own fingertips with his fingernails & with little needles from plants along the trail & i was still, at that advanced age, a bit taken with him & every time something small touched my skin like that i could feel something very nice creep up to my occipital bone.
4. i thought these things were disparate but it seems all i can think of today is touch.
5. except i learnt in my new favorite book today about something called cri du chat syndrome, which is a fabulous name for something pretty awful involving how to tell if your preverbal infant is going to turn out okay in the head or not.
