in honor of the superhero episode of
this american life, which is being broadcast into my living room right now, i will tell you that i would rather be able to fly than to become invisible. i'm assuming that if i could fly, i could also
hover. i like the idea of looking down onto places full of people unbeknownst etc. also, given a high enough ceiling & jet-pack-like flight ability, i could escape quickly from any situation.
yes. yes.
(ask mischka about the time i said, "that house is full of empty people," because i can't remember why or in what conversation i said it, just that it sort of flew out of my mouth & he won't let me forget it. i like it, anyway.)
:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:today as the bus crept & oozed its way past the convention center, hosting the arnold fitness classic, i saw this truck with a giant ad for some sports nutrition company, with a big picture of the man after whom the company is named, on the side of the truck. the man in the picture was shirtless with the requisite ken-doll head looking like it had been photoshopped onto the requisite musclebound torso, also the requisite folding of the huge arms over the torso::: & i saw this picture & i thought about endothermia & the way our muscles twitch constantly (& usually unnoticeably) to produce enough heat to keep our blood near ninety-nine degrees: & i thought, "i wonder how it feels to have muscles that big that are twitching constantly all the time." i thought, "how does he sleep at night?" then i tried to imagine how your body could ever be comfortable enough to sleep if it were shaped like that.
i think too much when the bus is going that slowly. at least i had the postal service to keep me company.
:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:what am i doing today? finishing wuthering heights, eating cookies in bed.
:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:tomorrow i am scheduled to be the lector at 9am mass. i haven't been to mass, or anything resembling mass, since the first sunday of advent. i've been having dreams about going back. finally i looked up the readings i am supposed to do. the first one is from the book of the prophet hosea & includes the verse:
I will make a covenant for them on that day, with the beasts of the field, with the birds of the air, and with the things that crawl on the ground. Bow and sword and war I will destroy from the land, and I will let them take their rest in security
� & i ask you, what will it take for me to read those words without my voice breaking? fortunately i am one of a long line of people with a gift for reading out loud.
