i'm working today on three hours of sleep. i feel like i am a video game character & i can see my status bar in the upper left corner of my vision, dwindling & quivering.
(my favorite thing about the universal video game idiom is the brief moment of flickering-you invulnerability right after you have been hit, when nothing can harm you for just a second or two. i wish for that right now.)
all week i have been restless, unsleeping, just lying there in the dark feeling my heart race & race. i was going to write that i feel like my heart is trapped in a disco & is being forced to dance against its will. then i erased it because it was silly. then i put it back, sort of, just now, as evidence of how unpretty, unstudied i become when insomniac.
