another element of the crisis: last night as i finished
american gods i caught her name in the acknowledgments page.
maybe my idea of Order in the Universe differs from yours, but i didn't realize that it's fair play for someone i don't care for very much to throw out, into the wide world, the gorgeous powerful name of the first person i was in love with.
but then, that's just me being selfish. & i'm sure i'm not the only one who fell in love with her first.
:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:mischka called to invite me over to share a bottle of chardonnay. that was at noon. thankfully i have enough good sense intact that i turned him down.
